But life can change pretty fast....I've seen it.
One moment you are moving along and the next things fall apart...and you are stammering because you don't know what hit you.
I have been in this situation a few times..you know...when it feels like the world is crushing in around you....
My life crushing events have come in the form of sudden deaths of grandparents and friends and health issues of the people I love and at the hands of the man I married at a young age. I feel lucky for all of these moments even if they didn't feel too good at the the time because they helped create the person I am today.
In the last few weeks I have had subtle reminders of how fragile life really is.
A couple of weeks ago Trudy went in for a scheduled sports physical for the upcoming sports season and the doctor heard some abnormalities in her heart rhythms...the doctor quickly scheduled an echocardiogram. I will never forget the day. She layed on the table with the doctor probing roughly at her chest with an ultrasound machine....it felt like we were there for hours and hours... and at that moment my strong athletic vibrant child was vulnerable..or maybe she wasn't. Maybe I was. The room was dark so they could read the monitors and I very quietly wept thinking through all the 'what if's'. I hadn't really taken it too seriously till this moment.. The results were 3 valves that back flow a little....nothing serious. I watched her on the table...she is almost grown into a woman..it is still amazing to me...that I made that....that amazing human being...and how lucky I am.
I thought my stint of bawling like a baby in Radiology would be forgotten by the time I needed to return another day...for whatever life may bring.
|I'm going to get a few pairs of these...|